Happy Easter

As you can tell, its Easter. Woo hew, I get to celebrate with family!!! NOT, jk I'm stuck working. Sometimes working for an organization that has religious beliefs opposite of yours isn't beneficial. I shouldn't really complain though, its not like I practice a religion, or my family cares about real family holidays.

It's not like we didn't when my brother and I were younger, though. We did, we did all the normal events for most holidays; extravagant dinners, Easter Egg hunts, x-mas stockings, etc etc. I guess as we got older, the importance of family functions, lost their appeal.  The value of the traditions are there, I know what they are and I see the importance of it, I just don't get to experience them. bummer, I know. I truly don't feel like I've missed out on anything though, because well, growing up I sort of latched on to other people to gain the experiences i was missing out on. Prime example, is Brandon. We dated for 8 years off and on, and through that I got to see and experience what "real" family traditions were about. I kind of miss it. In some shape and form, his family was my family.
lately, I don't know if its because of the things that have been going on in my life, or some unresolved feelings, but I've been thinking about him a lot.  I shouldn't, but for some reason he's been on my mind a lot lately.  I think a lot of it has to deal with my current relationship. Things are rocky, and I kind of just wish that Matt was more like Brandon....Is that bad? It's not like I want him to be 100% like him, just i guess some characteristics. actually, one big trait, and that's just IDK committing and letting me feel secure with it.

That's another day though, and another story with even more incoherent rambling